i realize in actual fact, i have no one to count on. everybody's busy with their own stuff. there's no one that will understand every bit of me and my unsaid words, being there whenever i need someone or giving up a date for me bcus i really need someone by my side.
today i experienced the worst feelings ever.
being called no sense for wanting to spend time with someone and send the person home. when i could've stayed home and have dinner, spend quality time over the dinner table with my family.
telling me that i'm no. 1 but doesn't reply my text bcus of tv.
telling me that it's true that keeping silence over the phone is really wasting time and already used to it. but doesn't make the effort to do something about it or tell me something nicer like "i can feel your presence and it's good"
am i asking too much or what i pointed out was agreeable?
where's the "i'll always be there for you" promise? where are you now when i need you?
you're in bed, sleeping, perfectly good.
and here i am, shedding tears for you.